I just wanted to start off this post with expressing our joy and thanks for all of the ways that God has provided our needs during the support raising process. We understand that we would not have the support that we do have without Christ’s tender mercy and grace. I also want to thank all of you for your love and support through prayers and finances. God is using you to send us to the foreign mission field. There is a phrase that I say often when we ask others to join us in this ministry. God may not have called you personally to go, but He has called you to be personally involved. Thank you for caring and for being involved.
We have been raising support for the past two years. If you asked me two years ago if I thought we would still be in the states at this point, I would have told you absolutely not. That option is not in the plan. We will be in Bogotá in a year and a half, max, and that was timeline that I wasn’t extremely comfortable with but it seemed reasonable and safe. Well, here we are, two years down and we are so close but not quite there.
It’s a funny feeling to be this close. We are at a point where we need to start to get prepared to leave but we aren’t sure when that is going to happen. If you know me, you know that makes me very uncomfortable. I need to know the timeline. How long are we talking about here? One month, two months, months? Knowing would make things a little easier.
Many of you have talked with us about how raising support has been going and we have been honest with you. “It’s going well, slow, but God is providing.” As most of you have seen the frustration in our response you have given us encouraging words of resting in God’s timing. Thank you for those words, but honestly, sometimes it doesn’t help. It’s hard to be in this position, fully relying God to move others to provide our needs through their sacrifices and generosity. It’s not an easy thing to do, especially when we come from a culture that teaches us that, if we want something, we need to work for it and not ask others for help. It is also hard when we come from a culture of immediate self gratification. Like that commercial says, “It’s mine and I want it now.” Sometimes I feel like; “God you have called us to do this. Why aren’t we there yet? What’s taking so long?” I’m the kid kicking and screaming in the back of the car on a road trip. (Feel free to call me a brat.)
Being in ministry, I feel like we have these undue expectations put upon us. We are supposed to be encouraging and uplifting at all times. We can never struggle with things or have doubts about what God is doing in our lives. Basically, we can’t be people. Now I know that not everyone feels this way, but it does happen.
Here it is, Missionaries Struggle, Pastors Struggle, and You Struggle.
One of my biggest struggles right now is understanding why it is taking so long for us to get to the mission field. I thought that we would have been in Bogotá a long time ago. I wasn’t expecting to be at 81% in January 2015. I wasn’t expecting to still be trying to make appointments with churches and families to ask them to join us in this ministry. I was expecting to be doing ministry in Bogotá.
Now, I understand and believe that everything happens in God’s timing. And he has ordained the things that have happened and the way they have happened. We would not have met and made some amazing friendships that have been some of our biggest support and encouragement if we were in Bogotá right now. We would not have been able to be here during times of family crises. I see where God has been merciful to allow us to be here during those times. He is and has been very gracious to us during this time.
I just ask that you pray for us. Pray for me as I struggle through wondering why it has been taking so long. Pray that I would fully rely on God’s timing and His provision. It is something that He is walking me through on a daily basis. Of course some days are better than others. Yesterday, while struggling through this, Christ showed this verse to me. God spoke to Habakkuk concerning a vision in chapter 2 verse 3. “For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end-it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” God does not delay, he provides exactly when he means to provide.
Thanks for reading,